today was a good Easter.

sunshine.

i had the most awesome nap.

we went by and saw my dad's grave. it looks really nice.

have a great week!

God Is AWESOME!

man, last night was horrible. i cried myself to sleep, like really hard, because i missed my dad so much. That and other things. And I got to talk to God while I was crying though, and He gave me peace and comfort. I woke up this morning feeling joyful, because today is a new day, and I can rejoice in God and all that He has so graciously given me, and I'm His daughter, so I have nothing to be down about.

I miss a lot with my dad, I feel like I had to grow up really fast, and not be daddy's little girl anymore Like I wanted to. But atleast I have awesome memories to look back at.

All this drama, it's His, because I have put it in His control. I hate it, and it doesn't even matter.

I checked my email, and my Nana sent me this one...I thought it was PERFECT, and it was like it was a message from God to me....

God's Boxes  

I have in my hands two boxes,
Which God gave me to hold.
He said, "Put all your sorrows in the black box,
And all your joys in the gold."

I heeded His words, and in the two boxes,
Both my joys and sorrows I stored,
But though the gold became heavier each day,
The black was as light as before.

With curiosity, I opened the black,
I wanted to find out why,
And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole,
Which my sorrows had fallen out by.

I showed the hole to God, and mused,
"I wonder where my sorrows could be!"
He smiled a gentle smile and said,
"My child, they're all here with me.."

I asked God, why He gave me the boxes,
Why the gold and the black with the hole?
"My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings,
The black is for you to let go."

and so even when my friend's forsake me, and i'm down, and have no one to talk to, and i feel no one understands, and people give me evil looks up and down, I always have God, because He is never going to leave me, and I can always talk to Him because I know He cares.

i'm sick of people making rude faces at me in orchestra.

i'm sick of the whole drama with certain people in orchestra. 

gosh. it's stupid.

it ticks me majorly off.

i have to breathe in and out deeply lol or i might just break my bow over someone's head. lol it's retarded. just leave me alone, gosh! i don't mess with other people.

if it wasn't for some people in there, i would die slowly everytime i went.

i was like kinda upset tonight....cause of the way people are. i don't get it. so i went to the car, and keith tried cheering me up.lol it worked haha i tried to run tho.

i am SO busy these days.

TEXAS is SOON!!!! yay! and my birthday!! yay!!

i wish things were how they used to be.

eeehhh!!!! only 21 days until my b-day! i'm still undecided to what ima do....none of my friends get a long, but that's not my problem.

i went to the fair again last night with my whole family (even my mom!!), my mom got sick on one of the rides...and when it was over, i yelled out to the mexican guy "ultra ves, ultra ves!!!!" and he was laughing at me.

well, i'm still getting ready for STEP...i can't wait....it's gonna be something different, and i'm always willing to try something atleast once.

i got this letter in the mail yesterday from IBLP and they want Linz and I to go on stage in Big Sandy for something something something because of the time that we had at Indianapolis...it's like with a bunch of others who spent time of service this year for a good cause. I dunno.

my first ferris wheel.

the cool ride that went backwards and frontwards and rocked u and went super fast. lol